1 00:00:07,720 --> 00:00:10,480 I'd worked that day, in a Caribbean restaurant. 2 00:00:11,280 --> 00:00:14,760 It was a warm day. There was thundery rain. 3 00:00:16,360 --> 00:00:20,079 David and I went out after work, went out drinking. 4 00:00:20,080 --> 00:00:23,600 Went to a local club. I can't recall the name. 5 00:00:25,120 --> 00:00:26,800 We met Susan Harper there. 6 00:00:27,920 --> 00:00:31,799 She invited us to her house. I think she shared a house, 7 00:00:31,800 --> 00:00:33,320 but there was no one there. 8 00:00:34,320 --> 00:00:36,360 - We went up to her room. - The three of you? 9 00:00:38,240 --> 00:00:39,639 Yes. 10 00:00:39,640 --> 00:00:41,040 What happened? 11 00:00:45,480 --> 00:00:46,920 She and David had sex. 12 00:00:48,240 --> 00:00:49,240 And you? 13 00:00:51,800 --> 00:00:53,080 I watched. 14 00:00:54,440 --> 00:00:56,200 What sort of sex? 15 00:00:59,520 --> 00:01:00,800 Ordinary sex. 16 00:01:02,840 --> 00:01:04,120 What happened then? 17 00:01:06,520 --> 00:01:07,800 David left. 18 00:01:09,720 --> 00:01:12,240 He went out to find more drink... 19 00:01:13,160 --> 00:01:14,560 Left us together. 20 00:01:15,600 --> 00:01:16,640 Go on. 21 00:01:20,560 --> 00:01:21,760 We, um... 22 00:01:24,600 --> 00:01:28,199 I invited her to try something a bit different. 23 00:01:28,200 --> 00:01:29,360 What? 24 00:01:30,680 --> 00:01:32,000 A sex game. 25 00:01:35,800 --> 00:01:37,119 What happened was an accident. 26 00:01:37,120 --> 00:01:38,839 A consensual game? 27 00:01:38,840 --> 00:01:40,359 Yes. 28 00:01:40,360 --> 00:01:44,319 Then how did this David Alvarez individual come to be found guilty 29 00:01:44,320 --> 00:01:45,679 if he wasn't even there? 30 00:01:45,680 --> 00:01:48,360 And why murder? Why not manslaughter? 31 00:01:50,640 --> 00:01:51,920 It's complicated. 32 00:01:52,840 --> 00:01:55,639 Did David Alvarez find somewhere to sell him drink? 33 00:01:55,640 --> 00:01:58,120 Don't know. Never came back. 34 00:02:00,840 --> 00:02:02,520 Could I please have some water? 35 00:02:12,880 --> 00:02:14,680 Have you, um... 36 00:02:16,160 --> 00:02:19,400 remembered more in regard to the other charges? 37 00:02:20,600 --> 00:02:22,200 No. 38 00:02:25,920 --> 00:02:29,160 It'll look bad if you stop answering now. 39 00:02:32,560 --> 00:02:34,760 Just be careful what you say. 40 00:02:52,360 --> 00:02:55,599 {\an8} So, at that point, you were left alone with Susan Harper? 41 00:02:55,600 --> 00:02:56,759 {\an8}Yes. 42 00:02:56,760 --> 00:02:58,000 {\an8}What happened then? 43 00:02:59,640 --> 00:03:03,639 {\an8}I suggested that she try something, uh, a bit more exciting 44 00:03:03,640 --> 00:03:05,680 {\an8}than the sex that she'd had with David. 45 00:03:06,600 --> 00:03:07,600 {\an8}What? 46 00:03:09,920 --> 00:03:11,320 {\an8}I'd been experimenting. 47 00:03:12,280 --> 00:03:14,080 {\an8}With? 48 00:03:22,960 --> 00:03:24,400 {\an8}Exhibit 132. 49 00:03:27,760 --> 00:03:28,959 {\an8}I've never seen these before. 50 00:03:28,960 --> 00:03:31,359 {\an8}-You admit it's you? - He admits no such thing. 51 00:03:31,360 --> 00:03:34,439 {\an8}Experimenting like that, with sexual asphyxiation, 52 00:03:34,440 --> 00:03:37,359 {\an8}is that the sort of behavior you involved Susan Harper in? 53 00:03:37,360 --> 00:03:40,040 {\an8} I advise you not to answer that question. 54 00:03:40,800 --> 00:03:41,800 {\an8}Yes. 55 00:03:42,920 --> 00:03:44,039 {\an8} How? 56 00:03:44,040 --> 00:03:45,200 {\an8}Specifically. 57 00:03:47,280 --> 00:03:49,440 {\an8}Her head in a plastic bag. 58 00:03:52,560 --> 00:03:54,200 Tied off at the neck? 59 00:03:56,440 --> 00:03:58,719 No, just a thin plastic bag. 60 00:03:58,720 --> 00:04:00,399 Did you tie her hands? 61 00:04:00,400 --> 00:04:02,559 {\an8}No, her hands were free. 62 00:04:02,560 --> 00:04:05,079 {\an8}Was it your suggestion to use the bag? 63 00:04:05,080 --> 00:04:06,880 {\an8}-Yes. - Why? 64 00:04:08,640 --> 00:04:11,760 {\an8} The same reasons as in these pictures. 65 00:04:12,720 --> 00:04:15,159 To feel in control, to feel out of control, 66 00:04:15,160 --> 00:04:16,640 to feel powerful... 67 00:04:17,400 --> 00:04:20,439 to feel weak, to be fearful... 68 00:04:20,440 --> 00:04:23,520 {\an8}- to be trusted. - Were you supposed to remove it? 69 00:04:24,600 --> 00:04:26,079 {\an8} She was. 70 00:04:26,080 --> 00:04:29,080 At the peak of orgasm, tear off the bag... 71 00:04:30,640 --> 00:04:33,799 It floods the brain with oxygen-laden blood, 72 00:04:33,800 --> 00:04:36,119 leads to a feeling of euphoria. 73 00:04:36,120 --> 00:04:37,240 Or death. 74 00:04:39,480 --> 00:04:41,560 - Sadly, yes. - Sadly? 75 00:04:44,560 --> 00:04:47,360 Did she understand the risks involved with such behavior? 76 00:04:48,840 --> 00:04:51,000 - I think so. - Did you explain it? 77 00:04:52,240 --> 00:04:53,959 I don't remember. 78 00:04:53,960 --> 00:04:56,119 Why didn't you remove the bag for her 79 00:04:56,120 --> 00:04:59,240 if she lost consciousness? Could you not see she was suffocating? 80 00:05:00,480 --> 00:05:01,920 I wasn't looking at her. 81 00:05:03,480 --> 00:05:04,760 I was going down on her. 82 00:05:06,840 --> 00:05:10,879 We'd been drinking, taking coke. Maybe that's why she died. 83 00:05:10,880 --> 00:05:15,280 And yet David Alvarez, who wasn't even there at the time... 84 00:05:16,720 --> 00:05:18,880 is serving a life sentence for the murder. 85 00:05:21,320 --> 00:05:22,399 His choice. 86 00:05:22,400 --> 00:05:25,280 Why? Why would he make that choice, do you think? 87 00:05:26,680 --> 00:05:29,640 Don't know. You'll have to ask him. 88 00:05:32,040 --> 00:05:33,919 So what did you do when you realized what had happened? 89 00:05:33,920 --> 00:05:36,839 Did you call for an ambulance? Did you call the police? 90 00:05:36,840 --> 00:05:38,520 - No. - Why not? 91 00:05:39,600 --> 00:05:41,960 - It didn't occur to me. - What did you do? 92 00:05:42,880 --> 00:05:43,960 Cleaned up. 93 00:05:45,280 --> 00:05:48,440 Does that account for the presence of a washing up bowl by the bed? 94 00:05:50,600 --> 00:05:51,640 Yes. 95 00:05:52,880 --> 00:05:54,680 I fetched the water and washed her. 96 00:05:55,640 --> 00:05:56,839 Emptied it into the bath. 97 00:05:56,840 --> 00:05:59,039 I was meant to bring it back to the kitchen. 98 00:05:59,040 --> 00:06:00,599 Must have forgot. 99 00:06:00,600 --> 00:06:01,920 What color bowl? 100 00:06:03,200 --> 00:06:04,519 Green, I think. 101 00:06:04,520 --> 00:06:08,200 So, you just left her there, in her room, on her bed? 102 00:06:09,240 --> 00:06:11,200 - Yes. - What did you do then? 103 00:06:12,080 --> 00:06:14,360 - I walked the streets. - And after that? 104 00:06:16,320 --> 00:06:18,799 Left London. I came back to Belfast. 105 00:06:18,800 --> 00:06:21,439 - And that's when you became Paul Spector? - Yes. 106 00:06:21,440 --> 00:06:24,159 Did you have any communication with David Alvarez? 107 00:06:24,160 --> 00:06:26,559 - No. - At no point? 108 00:06:26,560 --> 00:06:27,720 No. 109 00:06:28,960 --> 00:06:30,359 I ask you again. 110 00:06:30,360 --> 00:06:33,400 Why would he take the blame, do you think? 111 00:06:37,640 --> 00:06:39,799 He must have felt he was doing the right thing, I suppose. 112 00:06:39,800 --> 00:06:41,560 But why would he think... 113 00:06:42,520 --> 00:06:45,000 taking the blame was the right thing to do? 114 00:06:47,360 --> 00:06:48,600 You tell me. 115 00:06:51,760 --> 00:06:53,680 He said he felt in your debt. 116 00:06:56,480 --> 00:06:57,520 She speaks. 117 00:06:59,440 --> 00:07:01,959 He said he felt he owed you a great deal 118 00:07:01,960 --> 00:07:04,080 because you protected him as a child. 119 00:07:04,960 --> 00:07:05,960 Did I? 120 00:07:08,120 --> 00:07:09,400 You told me... 121 00:07:10,760 --> 00:07:14,040 that Father Jensen didn't abuse you at Gortnacul. 122 00:07:15,480 --> 00:07:18,640 You said that you made yourself repulsive so that he wouldn't touch you. 123 00:07:20,880 --> 00:07:22,360 I don't remember that. 124 00:07:23,520 --> 00:07:25,480 I don't recall talking to you before. 125 00:07:26,680 --> 00:07:29,760 But every boy there was abused in some way. 126 00:07:31,080 --> 00:07:32,320 No one escaped. 127 00:07:33,680 --> 00:07:34,800 In fact... 128 00:07:35,720 --> 00:07:38,920 some boys were singled out for special treatment. 129 00:07:41,080 --> 00:07:42,719 And you... 130 00:07:42,720 --> 00:07:45,480 were one of Father Jensen's favorites. 131 00:07:47,080 --> 00:07:48,920 He even had a pet name for you. 132 00:07:51,080 --> 00:07:53,200 He called you "Pretty Boy." 133 00:07:55,040 --> 00:07:58,160 He chose you to be his favorite for a whole year. 134 00:08:01,560 --> 00:08:04,720 When it came time for you to choose your successor... 135 00:08:06,000 --> 00:08:08,360 you looked right past David Alvarez. 136 00:08:10,000 --> 00:08:11,520 You chose another boy. 137 00:08:13,360 --> 00:08:16,880 And for that, he was eternally grateful. 138 00:08:19,640 --> 00:08:22,359 Or at least, until it became clear 139 00:08:22,360 --> 00:08:27,520 that the friend that he was protecting from an unfortunate fatal accident... 140 00:08:28,840 --> 00:08:31,279 was actually a friend who was, at that time, 141 00:08:31,280 --> 00:08:34,440 at the beginning of a career as a serial murderer. 142 00:08:37,680 --> 00:08:39,560 Drop the charade, Peter. 143 00:08:41,160 --> 00:08:42,920 Own your confession. 144 00:08:44,880 --> 00:08:46,960 Have the courage of your convictions 145 00:08:47,720 --> 00:08:50,280 and admit that you remember it all. 146 00:08:51,960 --> 00:08:53,159 You remember everything. 147 00:08:53,160 --> 00:08:54,239 I'm sorry, 148 00:08:54,240 --> 00:08:56,519 but you are intentionally prejudicing my client's case. 149 00:08:56,520 --> 00:08:59,200 {\an8}I will want this removed from the transcripts. 150 00:09:00,200 --> 00:09:03,040 {\an8} Were you not worried that the police would come after you? 151 00:09:04,880 --> 00:09:07,319 Come after Peter Baldwin, do you mean? 152 00:09:07,320 --> 00:09:10,200 Of no fixed abode somewhere in London? 153 00:09:11,280 --> 00:09:12,400 No, I wasn't. 154 00:09:14,200 --> 00:09:18,399 A year later, I was Paul Spector, living in Belfast, 155 00:09:18,400 --> 00:09:21,560 soon to become a married man with a child. 156 00:09:23,000 --> 00:09:26,680 Truth be told, I didn't give Alvarez and Susan Harper much thought. 157 00:09:30,360 --> 00:09:31,440 You know... 158 00:09:32,280 --> 00:09:36,440 I've been told a lot about Paul Spector since I was shot. 159 00:09:38,760 --> 00:09:40,440 At first, I was horrified. 160 00:09:42,800 --> 00:09:44,080 But then I must admit... 161 00:09:46,400 --> 00:09:47,680 little by little... 162 00:09:49,040 --> 00:09:50,999 he's started to intrigue me-- 163 00:09:51,000 --> 00:09:54,999 Paul, please stick to the facts surrounding the death of Susan Harper... 164 00:09:55,000 --> 00:09:58,680 and avoid speculating about things you can't remember. 165 00:10:00,840 --> 00:10:02,640 Speculation intrigues me. 166 00:10:06,960 --> 00:10:09,159 I'm told that I laid out Sarah Kay's underwear 167 00:10:09,160 --> 00:10:11,200 on her bed, in the shape of her body. 168 00:10:15,000 --> 00:10:16,800 That's what I used to do as a child. 169 00:10:19,400 --> 00:10:23,039 Lay out my... mother's clothes on her bed, 170 00:10:23,040 --> 00:10:26,200 in her shape, imagine she was there. 171 00:10:30,480 --> 00:10:31,960 It aroused me. 172 00:10:34,680 --> 00:10:37,440 {\an8}Then, when I was a wee bit older, 12, 13... 173 00:10:38,360 --> 00:10:41,920 {\an8}whenever I could, I would obtain female underwear. 174 00:10:43,200 --> 00:10:44,720 I'd use it to masturbate. 175 00:10:47,760 --> 00:10:49,240 Is that perverse? 176 00:10:52,040 --> 00:10:54,800 Was that the start of something that led me here? 177 00:10:56,080 --> 00:10:58,119 Or was it earlier? 178 00:10:58,120 --> 00:10:59,600 Gortnacul? 179 00:11:00,680 --> 00:11:03,000 Or earlier still, my mother's death? 180 00:11:05,400 --> 00:11:06,720 I want to know. 181 00:11:07,640 --> 00:11:09,360 I want to know the real me. 182 00:11:12,640 --> 00:11:16,040 Then stop hiding behind the mask of amnesia. 183 00:11:17,720 --> 00:11:20,479 We're all wearing masks to some extent. 184 00:11:21,760 --> 00:11:23,160 You certainly are. 185 00:11:27,320 --> 00:11:28,400 There are memories... 186 00:11:29,400 --> 00:11:33,000 Thoughts that... feel like memories... 187 00:11:34,760 --> 00:11:36,279 that are starting to come back to me. 188 00:11:36,280 --> 00:11:39,399 This interview has strayed way beyond its stated purpose. 189 00:11:39,400 --> 00:11:40,880 And there's a voice. 190 00:11:45,480 --> 00:11:49,440 There's a voice saying, "We're losing him, we're losing him." 191 00:11:51,840 --> 00:11:53,359 So... 192 00:11:53,360 --> 00:11:56,960 there must have been at least one person who cared whether I lived or died. 193 00:12:01,480 --> 00:12:02,880 That was me. 194 00:12:04,800 --> 00:12:06,240 That was my voice. 195 00:12:08,640 --> 00:12:10,080 And I did care. 196 00:12:11,720 --> 00:12:14,560 I thought death would be too easy for you. 197 00:12:15,680 --> 00:12:17,280 Too easy an escape. 198 00:12:19,000 --> 00:12:22,239 And I didn't want you to cheat the system. 199 00:12:22,240 --> 00:12:24,120 And I still don't. 200 00:12:25,160 --> 00:12:28,280 I want you to be punished for the crimes that you've committed. 201 00:12:32,400 --> 00:12:36,360 Rose Stagg was so right about you. 202 00:12:38,000 --> 00:12:39,680 She saw right through you... 203 00:12:40,600 --> 00:12:43,559 your... infantile desire 204 00:12:43,560 --> 00:12:47,240 to have a captive and captivated audience. 205 00:12:48,840 --> 00:12:50,560 You just want to be noticed. 206 00:12:52,000 --> 00:12:54,560 Just want to be the center of attention... 207 00:12:55,520 --> 00:12:57,959 to have special treatment... 208 00:12:57,960 --> 00:13:00,080 to make your mark. 209 00:13:02,880 --> 00:13:05,319 But it's all just a performance. 210 00:13:05,320 --> 00:13:06,400 All of it. 211 00:13:07,320 --> 00:13:10,480 You perform for me... for your solicitor... 212 00:13:11,400 --> 00:13:13,199 your doctors, your nurse, 213 00:13:13,200 --> 00:13:16,440 your psychiatrist, even your family. 214 00:13:18,520 --> 00:13:20,239 It's all just... 215 00:13:20,240 --> 00:13:23,600 one big performance... 216 00:13:24,840 --> 00:13:26,519 as protection... 217 00:13:26,520 --> 00:13:30,520 against the dreaded black hole of your heart. 218 00:13:37,040 --> 00:13:38,680 Well, guess what, Paul. 219 00:13:39,920 --> 00:13:41,480 It's time to grow up. 220 00:13:44,880 --> 00:13:48,080 It's time to take responsibility for what you've done. 221 00:13:49,840 --> 00:13:52,560 Let's stop this pathetic charade. 222 00:13:53,520 --> 00:13:56,719 I really must insist on a break now. 223 00:13:56,720 --> 00:14:00,519 I need time with my client to prepare a written statement 224 00:14:00,520 --> 00:14:03,000 about the death of Susan Harper that he will read. 225 00:14:10,880 --> 00:14:14,319 Interview is being suspended at 15:47, 226 00:14:14,320 --> 00:14:17,720 so that Paul Spector can consult with his solicitor. 227 00:14:20,160 --> 00:14:22,000 Fetch the detention officer. 228 00:15:01,400 --> 00:15:03,519 Murderer! 229 00:15:03,520 --> 00:15:04,799 Murderer! 230 00:15:10,480 --> 00:15:12,679 Get your hands off me! Get your hands off me! 231 00:15:12,680 --> 00:15:15,279 Don't touch me! Do you hear me? 232 00:15:15,280 --> 00:15:17,360 Don't you put your hands on me! 233 00:15:18,280 --> 00:15:19,959 Have you been drinking? 234 00:15:35,880 --> 00:15:37,879 You, escort Mr. Healy out of here. 235 00:15:37,880 --> 00:15:39,479 You, where's that fucking ambulance? 236 00:15:39,480 --> 00:15:41,320 It's all right. 237 00:15:47,720 --> 00:15:50,600 It's all right. It's all right. 238 00:15:59,480 --> 00:16:00,720 Drive. 239 00:16:01,640 --> 00:16:02,760 Drive! 240 00:16:54,880 --> 00:16:56,479 I'm shakin'. 241 00:16:56,480 --> 00:16:59,679 - How much did you see? - Uh, my monitor went dead. 242 00:16:59,680 --> 00:17:00,919 The attack on Gibson-- 243 00:17:00,920 --> 00:17:03,039 Yeah, it didn't stop there. 244 00:17:03,040 --> 00:17:04,839 What a way for the whole thing to end. 245 00:17:04,840 --> 00:17:06,639 End? What do you mean? 246 00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:08,799 Well, we can't possibly represent him now. 247 00:17:08,800 --> 00:17:09,880 Why not? 248 00:17:10,600 --> 00:17:12,799 I've never seen violence like that before in my life. 249 00:17:12,800 --> 00:17:16,599 What have we just witnessed? The very thing you described. 250 00:17:16,600 --> 00:17:19,999 Their deep obsession with each other. The emergence under duress of "Bad Paul." 251 00:17:20,000 --> 00:17:23,159 If Larson doesn't find evidence of dissociative disorder, 252 00:17:23,160 --> 00:17:27,559 a split personality, then we will find a psychiatrist who does. 253 00:17:27,560 --> 00:17:29,359 Then we play the "not guilty by reason of insanity" card 254 00:17:29,360 --> 00:17:31,319 or even, if necessary, "guilty, but insane." 255 00:17:31,320 --> 00:17:32,799 I can't, Sean. 256 00:17:32,800 --> 00:17:34,359 I can't be in the same room with him again. 257 00:17:34,360 --> 00:17:37,999 I get it. You admire her. You want to be her when you grow up. 258 00:17:38,000 --> 00:17:40,879 The fact remains, if you can't make the accused your focus, 259 00:17:40,880 --> 00:17:42,999 then you shouldn't be a defense lawyer. 260 00:17:43,000 --> 00:17:44,279 Probably not a criminal lawyer at all. 261 00:17:44,280 --> 00:17:45,520 Fine. 262 00:17:46,400 --> 00:17:48,560 - What? - You're on your own. 263 00:19:29,360 --> 00:19:31,000 Open your mouth for me. 264 00:19:36,400 --> 00:19:37,920 Bring your teeth together. 265 00:19:39,880 --> 00:19:42,839 - Painful? - Mmm, no, no. 266 00:19:42,840 --> 00:19:46,079 No crunching noises? Any problems with vision? 267 00:19:46,080 --> 00:19:47,239 No. 268 00:19:47,240 --> 00:19:50,279 I think you have a minimally displaced zygoma fracture. 269 00:19:50,280 --> 00:19:53,880 You're gonna be on a soft diet for two weeks or so. 270 00:19:54,800 --> 00:19:56,399 Though the bleeding's impressive, 271 00:19:56,400 --> 00:20:00,239 the laceration's small, might require a stitch or two. 272 00:20:00,240 --> 00:20:03,599 Irrigate the wound with lots of normal saline and I'll take a look. 273 00:20:03,600 --> 00:20:07,039 If you'd like to lie back on the bed for me, please? 274 00:20:25,280 --> 00:20:27,759 - Any pain? - Mmm, some. 275 00:20:27,760 --> 00:20:29,279 Shall I check for blood in the urine? 276 00:20:29,280 --> 00:20:30,720 Yes, please. 277 00:20:39,320 --> 00:20:41,319 I'd like to keep you in overnight for observation. 278 00:20:41,320 --> 00:20:42,799 No, that won't be necessary. 279 00:20:42,800 --> 00:20:45,000 Don't worry, it'll just be bed and breakfast. 280 00:20:45,840 --> 00:20:47,720 I'll be back to stitch that eyebrow. 281 00:22:12,120 --> 00:22:14,240 Thought I'd look in on you before I go. 282 00:22:16,200 --> 00:22:17,359 What time is it? 283 00:22:17,360 --> 00:22:19,560 Just after 2:00. 284 00:22:20,920 --> 00:22:25,640 This is my ninth straight night in a row. I've been on for 17 hours. 285 00:22:26,560 --> 00:22:27,840 I'm getting too old for this. 286 00:22:31,200 --> 00:22:33,680 Bet you're glad I saved his life. 287 00:22:39,680 --> 00:22:41,679 How's Tom Anderson? 288 00:22:41,680 --> 00:22:42,920 His arm's broken. 289 00:22:44,320 --> 00:22:47,679 He's undergone a closed reduction to pull the bones back into position. 290 00:22:47,680 --> 00:22:48,759 - Oh, Jesus. - He's been sent home 291 00:22:48,760 --> 00:22:50,160 with his arm in a cast. 292 00:22:52,480 --> 00:22:54,759 You know, given that... 293 00:22:54,760 --> 00:22:58,319 you're less likely to develop post-traumatic stress disorder 294 00:22:58,320 --> 00:23:00,439 if you don't sleep after a bad experience, 295 00:23:00,440 --> 00:23:02,599 maybe I should... 296 00:23:02,600 --> 00:23:04,960 keep you awake a wee bit longer, at least. 297 00:23:07,240 --> 00:23:08,840 Don't you have a home to go to? 298 00:23:09,440 --> 00:23:12,399 I do. A wife and five kids as it happens. 299 00:23:12,400 --> 00:23:14,879 From a daughter of 12 to a son of seven months. 300 00:23:14,880 --> 00:23:16,839 If I go home now... 301 00:23:16,840 --> 00:23:20,399 it'll be nappy changes and the four o'clock feed. 302 00:23:20,400 --> 00:23:22,560 Might as well sit with you for a bit. 303 00:23:24,040 --> 00:23:25,720 I'll ask you questions. 304 00:23:26,720 --> 00:23:27,759 Really? 305 00:23:27,760 --> 00:23:29,439 Aye. 306 00:23:29,440 --> 00:23:30,600 Go on. 307 00:23:34,000 --> 00:23:36,160 Do you like flowers? 308 00:23:38,840 --> 00:23:39,960 Of course. 309 00:23:40,880 --> 00:23:43,840 Can you play any musical instrument? 310 00:23:44,880 --> 00:23:47,840 I could play the violin when I was a girl. 311 00:23:49,120 --> 00:23:50,359 Have you ever been happy? 312 00:23:50,360 --> 00:23:51,880 If so, when? 313 00:23:53,520 --> 00:23:54,960 When I was a child... 314 00:23:55,880 --> 00:23:57,440 before my father died. 315 00:24:02,520 --> 00:24:04,280 Have you any real friends? 316 00:24:06,840 --> 00:24:08,000 A few. Yeah. 317 00:24:10,040 --> 00:24:11,960 You ever wished anyone dead? 318 00:24:13,320 --> 00:24:14,720 Yes, I have. 319 00:24:20,480 --> 00:24:22,640 Are you a good swimmer? 320 00:24:24,800 --> 00:24:25,960 Very. 321 00:24:27,440 --> 00:24:30,880 Are men or women the stronger, do you think? 322 00:24:33,320 --> 00:24:35,920 - What do you think? - Oh, women, without a doubt. 323 00:24:37,600 --> 00:24:39,519 In fact, it's time you hurried up and took over. 324 00:24:39,520 --> 00:24:42,320 I mean, it's gonna happen, so why not get on with it? 325 00:24:44,400 --> 00:24:46,680 - Which is your favorite season? - Hmm... 326 00:24:47,720 --> 00:24:48,880 Spring. 327 00:24:51,120 --> 00:24:54,159 Has Mr. Spector been a threat to himself or others in the past week? 328 00:24:54,160 --> 00:24:56,199 There have been no more breaches of protocol 329 00:24:56,200 --> 00:24:58,000 since he's been back. 330 00:24:58,920 --> 00:25:01,599 Anything more from the test results? 331 00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:04,679 Have you found any compelling inconsistencies? 332 00:25:04,680 --> 00:25:06,159 No, I haven't... 333 00:25:06,160 --> 00:25:10,200 which is unsurprising, given his professional knowledge. 334 00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:13,559 I know it's in your nature 335 00:25:13,560 --> 00:25:17,319 to infer invisible unconscious processes behind the memory loss 336 00:25:17,320 --> 00:25:21,839 and that it is an exceptional doctor who... will take the risk 337 00:25:21,840 --> 00:25:24,599 of concluding in writing that someone is malingering, 338 00:25:24,600 --> 00:25:27,040 but... with respect... 339 00:25:27,800 --> 00:25:29,520 that is what I think you should do. 340 00:25:30,400 --> 00:25:31,759 Do you? 341 00:25:31,760 --> 00:25:35,479 The CT head scan with and without contrast was normal. 342 00:25:35,480 --> 00:25:39,639 The MRI of the brain and the spinal cord showed normal results. 343 00:25:39,640 --> 00:25:41,959 There's no evidence of structural brain damage 344 00:25:41,960 --> 00:25:44,959 in the neurological examinations or neuroimaging. 345 00:25:44,960 --> 00:25:49,599 With his history of lying and everything that he stands to gain 346 00:25:49,600 --> 00:25:53,999 from exaggeration and fabrication of the symptoms, 347 00:25:54,000 --> 00:25:56,440 the amnesia has to be malingered. 348 00:25:57,760 --> 00:25:59,760 He's proved how dangerous he is. 349 00:26:00,920 --> 00:26:02,440 It has to be fake. 350 00:26:26,680 --> 00:26:28,560 It's not me. 351 00:26:28,680 --> 00:26:29,800 What? 352 00:26:32,560 --> 00:26:34,680 I look at my body and it's not me. 353 00:26:35,640 --> 00:26:38,280 It'll take a while to get used to, that's all. 354 00:26:50,480 --> 00:26:52,200 - Take this. - Thank you, sir. 355 00:26:56,840 --> 00:27:00,719 We've had a report, ma'am, from the Juvenile Offenders Center. 356 00:27:00,720 --> 00:27:04,519 It seems that Katie Benedetto has been self-harming. 357 00:27:04,520 --> 00:27:05,639 How? 358 00:27:05,640 --> 00:27:08,360 Cutting herself with a piece of bone. 359 00:27:09,160 --> 00:27:10,319 What? 360 00:27:10,320 --> 00:27:13,560 They think she must have found it in her food at some point. 361 00:27:14,720 --> 00:27:15,880 Jesus. 362 00:27:20,040 --> 00:27:21,839 Is there a happy memory 363 00:27:21,840 --> 00:27:25,000 from any part of your life that you can remember? 364 00:27:34,480 --> 00:27:37,120 I used to think that there was a black hole inside me... 365 00:27:38,000 --> 00:27:39,440 that nothing could fill. 366 00:27:42,080 --> 00:27:43,560 Then I had a daughter. 367 00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:49,280 I remember the first time that I put her to sleep. 368 00:27:50,920 --> 00:27:54,239 I was standin', holdin' her in my arms... 369 00:27:54,240 --> 00:27:55,440 rockin' her. 370 00:27:57,560 --> 00:28:01,600 I was looking at her all the time. She was looking up at me. 371 00:28:04,040 --> 00:28:06,840 I began to feel that she trusted me... 372 00:28:07,880 --> 00:28:09,280 that she felt safe. 373 00:28:11,800 --> 00:28:15,400 She must have done because her eyelids started closing... 374 00:28:17,120 --> 00:28:18,520 little by little... 375 00:28:19,920 --> 00:28:21,360 and then she was asleep. 376 00:28:26,040 --> 00:28:27,560 That's a good memory. 377 00:28:30,800 --> 00:28:32,680 Why did you attack Stella Gibson? 378 00:28:34,400 --> 00:28:37,240 Why did you break that young man's arm? 379 00:28:47,320 --> 00:28:50,800 There is a visible and an invisible world. 380 00:28:52,120 --> 00:28:53,920 That's why people get hurt. 381 00:29:03,640 --> 00:29:05,040 Do you think I'm treatable? 382 00:29:07,680 --> 00:29:08,680 Of course. 383 00:29:11,560 --> 00:29:13,080 Curable? 384 00:29:15,040 --> 00:29:17,800 Hmm... that's different. 385 00:29:27,720 --> 00:29:30,160 What would you do for me if I was your patient? 386 00:29:34,000 --> 00:29:38,800 Try to get you to pay attention wisely to things as they are. 387 00:29:40,400 --> 00:29:44,680 Foster clear thinking and open-heartedness. 388 00:29:45,760 --> 00:29:48,519 Try to develop the capacity in you 389 00:29:48,520 --> 00:29:53,599 to experience a feeling without necessarily acting on it. 390 00:29:53,600 --> 00:29:58,400 Try to enable you to see the difference between thoughts and reality. 391 00:30:04,800 --> 00:30:06,999 I'd imagine you're a good father. 392 00:30:07,000 --> 00:30:09,480 Well, what do you mean by "good father"? 393 00:30:14,360 --> 00:30:15,880 Someone who's present... 394 00:30:17,680 --> 00:30:19,360 there for his children. 395 00:30:31,120 --> 00:30:32,519 Has anyone ever told you, 396 00:30:32,520 --> 00:30:35,399 you sometimes have bad dreams that you can't remember? 397 00:30:35,400 --> 00:30:38,079 Has your mummy or your daddy ever told you that? 398 00:30:38,080 --> 00:30:42,080 Yes, my mummy took me to the doctor's one time. 399 00:30:42,960 --> 00:30:44,319 Have you had any bad dreams 400 00:30:44,320 --> 00:30:46,359 since you've been staying with Joan and Stephen? 401 00:30:46,360 --> 00:30:48,319 I don't think so. 402 00:30:48,320 --> 00:30:50,759 She hasn't. She's been sleeping well. 403 00:30:50,760 --> 00:30:54,840 Daddy said he had bad dreams like mine when he was in the children's home. 404 00:30:56,160 --> 00:30:57,320 Did he? 405 00:30:58,240 --> 00:31:00,039 Did he say what he dreamed about? 406 00:31:00,040 --> 00:31:01,960 Frightening things. 407 00:31:04,080 --> 00:31:07,240 How do you feel about your daddy right now, Olivia? 408 00:31:08,160 --> 00:31:09,839 I love him... 409 00:31:09,840 --> 00:31:11,519 But? 410 00:31:11,520 --> 00:31:14,720 I don't think I'll go see him for a while. 411 00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:19,079 How long do you think before you'll see him again? 412 00:31:19,080 --> 00:31:22,200 When I'm grown up, I might. Or if I have a baby. 413 00:31:23,120 --> 00:31:26,080 If I have a baby, I might go take her to see him. 414 00:31:28,280 --> 00:31:30,040 What happened to your face? 415 00:31:31,160 --> 00:31:32,760 I was in a car accident. 416 00:31:35,920 --> 00:31:37,320 No, I wasn't. 417 00:31:40,800 --> 00:31:42,720 Paul Spector attacked me. 418 00:31:50,600 --> 00:31:52,480 I've got marks like that. 419 00:31:59,880 --> 00:32:00,959 Show me. 420 00:32:00,960 --> 00:32:02,599 I can't. 421 00:32:02,600 --> 00:32:03,680 Why? 422 00:32:04,560 --> 00:32:08,120 They're on my upper thighs and on the soles of my feet. 423 00:32:10,520 --> 00:32:13,640 I didn't want anyone to know, to see them. 424 00:32:15,200 --> 00:32:16,640 They were private. 425 00:32:19,120 --> 00:32:20,680 Why did you do it? 426 00:32:23,600 --> 00:32:25,999 I think for the same reason you do. 427 00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:29,759 What's that? 428 00:32:29,760 --> 00:32:30,960 Anger. 429 00:32:35,000 --> 00:32:36,880 What did you have to be angry about? 430 00:32:38,800 --> 00:32:40,080 My father. 431 00:32:43,960 --> 00:32:45,280 Why? 432 00:32:47,160 --> 00:32:48,400 He died. 433 00:32:51,440 --> 00:32:52,520 How? 434 00:32:55,440 --> 00:32:56,520 He was ill. 435 00:32:59,480 --> 00:33:00,880 How old were you? 436 00:33:01,800 --> 00:33:03,080 Fourteen. 437 00:33:10,120 --> 00:33:11,839 My father killed himself. 438 00:33:11,840 --> 00:33:13,880 I thought it was an accident. 439 00:33:16,600 --> 00:33:18,680 He chose to ride a motor bike. 440 00:33:20,600 --> 00:33:23,360 Even though I worried about him every time he went out... 441 00:33:25,080 --> 00:33:27,200 every night he was late home. 442 00:33:31,720 --> 00:33:34,120 He loved the bike more than he loved me. 443 00:33:36,400 --> 00:33:40,000 Loved the thrill of speed more than he loved his only daughter. 444 00:33:42,160 --> 00:33:44,120 I don't call that an accident. 445 00:33:46,320 --> 00:33:48,840 Is that why you're throwing your life away? 446 00:33:51,320 --> 00:33:53,400 You know you can't get him back... 447 00:33:55,400 --> 00:33:57,400 no matter how hard you try. 448 00:34:02,440 --> 00:34:04,440 {\an8} 449 00:34:23,920 --> 00:34:26,120 "There was a man of double deed 450 00:34:26,920 --> 00:34:29,280 Who sowed his garden full of seed 451 00:34:30,520 --> 00:34:33,000 But when the seed began to grow 452 00:34:34,080 --> 00:34:36,400 'Twas like a garden full of snow 453 00:34:37,760 --> 00:34:39,680 When the snow began to melt 454 00:34:40,600 --> 00:34:43,000 'Twas like a ship without a belt 455 00:34:44,040 --> 00:34:46,240 When the ship began to sail 456 00:34:47,440 --> 00:34:50,480 'Twas like a bird without a tail 457 00:34:52,080 --> 00:34:54,080 When the bird began to fly 458 00:34:55,080 --> 00:34:57,720 'Twas like an eagle in the sky 459 00:34:59,640 --> 00:35:01,800 And when the sky began to roar 460 00:35:03,640 --> 00:35:06,680 'Twas like a lion at my door 461 00:35:08,400 --> 00:35:10,320 When my door began to crack 462 00:35:11,080 --> 00:35:13,560 'Twas like a stick across my back 463 00:35:15,640 --> 00:35:18,240 And when my back began to smart 464 00:35:19,280 --> 00:35:22,640 'Twas like a penknife in my heart 465 00:35:24,720 --> 00:35:27,280 And when my heart began to bleed 466 00:35:30,240 --> 00:35:33,240 'Twas death, and death 467 00:35:35,040 --> 00:35:37,000 And death indeed" 468 00:35:59,760 --> 00:36:01,520 I need you to do me a favor. 469 00:36:05,000 --> 00:36:08,439 I know that everything feels tainted... 470 00:36:08,440 --> 00:36:09,919 polluted... 471 00:36:09,920 --> 00:36:11,440 but it's not. 472 00:36:18,120 --> 00:36:20,599 We all have those voices in our heads 473 00:36:20,600 --> 00:36:23,559 that tell us we're a disappointment, 474 00:36:23,560 --> 00:36:26,720 that tell us our work is insignificant... 475 00:36:27,480 --> 00:36:31,000 that it's not good enough, it takes too long, it's too hard. 476 00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:35,000 But when times are tough... 477 00:36:36,520 --> 00:36:38,600 we need tough dreams. 478 00:36:39,560 --> 00:36:42,400 But real dreams, not lies. 479 00:36:43,920 --> 00:36:46,520 Not an unreality like Paul. 480 00:36:50,320 --> 00:36:52,600 You need to fight for yourself, Katie. 481 00:36:54,240 --> 00:36:55,880 Because right now... 482 00:36:57,360 --> 00:36:58,600 you're in danger. 483 00:37:25,280 --> 00:37:28,320 - What's this? - It's your chocolate. 484 00:37:29,520 --> 00:37:31,240 I don't want that chocolate. I want what he's got. 485 00:37:32,160 --> 00:37:33,639 Mark, you're diabetic. That's your special chocolate. 486 00:37:33,640 --> 00:37:35,439 I don't like special chocolate. 487 00:37:35,440 --> 00:37:36,720 I want what he's got. 488 00:37:37,880 --> 00:37:40,199 That stuff tastes like dog chocolate. I'm not eating dog chocolate. 489 00:37:42,680 --> 00:37:45,719 - I'm afraid it's this or nothing. - Give me my money back, then. 490 00:37:45,720 --> 00:37:47,960 I've spent your money on the things you asked for. 491 00:37:48,920 --> 00:37:50,999 I want my money back! 492 00:37:51,000 --> 00:37:52,319 Mark, calm yourself. 493 00:37:52,320 --> 00:37:54,239 I'm not a dog. I'm not eating that shit. I refuse! 494 00:37:54,240 --> 00:37:56,199 Calm down, Mark, or you'll be restrained. 495 00:37:56,200 --> 00:37:58,399 What did you say to me? You call me a homosexual? 496 00:37:58,400 --> 00:38:01,079 - I didn't call you anything! - Called me a homosexual! 497 00:38:01,080 --> 00:38:03,840 Mark, calm down, now. 498 00:39:09,040 --> 00:39:12,960 We all need love and we all need nurture. 499 00:39:14,280 --> 00:39:17,000 There's too much death and destruction. 500 00:39:18,080 --> 00:39:20,120 But friends who love you should... 501 00:39:22,120 --> 00:39:24,080 warm you like the sun. 502 00:39:26,040 --> 00:39:28,120 Make you feel good about yourself... 503 00:39:29,000 --> 00:39:33,040 not freeze you in their contempt and in their hate. 504 00:39:34,720 --> 00:39:38,560 Anger corrodes our belief that anything good can happen to us. 505 00:39:42,000 --> 00:39:44,680 Paul's been destroyed by his anger... 506 00:39:45,560 --> 00:39:46,600 his rage. 507 00:39:50,200 --> 00:39:51,320 And you... 508 00:39:52,520 --> 00:39:54,000 you hurt a friend... 509 00:39:55,360 --> 00:39:56,760 to impress him. 510 00:40:01,200 --> 00:40:02,880 But he doesn't care. 511 00:40:06,520 --> 00:40:09,000 He doesn't even know you exist. 512 00:40:44,480 --> 00:40:46,760 Let's go, let's go, let's go, let's go. 513 00:40:51,520 --> 00:40:53,719 His head. Watch his head. Watch his head! 514 00:40:55,280 --> 00:40:56,799 Let's go, let's go! 515 00:40:56,800 --> 00:40:58,440 Go, go, go! Door, door, door! 516 00:41:11,080 --> 00:41:12,119 Fuck off! 517 00:41:12,120 --> 00:41:14,639 That's right, fuck the lot of you! 518 00:41:14,640 --> 00:41:15,720 Fuck off! 519 00:42:06,760 --> 00:42:09,120 You and I were loved so much... 520 00:42:10,240 --> 00:42:13,120 even if our fathers couldn't stay around for us. 521 00:42:14,360 --> 00:42:17,400 Maybe we both need to be held while we grieve... 522 00:42:18,560 --> 00:42:21,960 but it has to be someone who can feel pain for our pain... 523 00:42:23,840 --> 00:42:25,600 not revel in it. 524 00:42:27,440 --> 00:42:29,560 Not someone who will abandon us. 525 00:44:03,760 --> 00:44:06,959 Oh, sweet Jesus. Call... Somebody call for an ambulance! 526 00:44:06,960 --> 00:44:10,000 Call an ambulance! Where's Spector? 527 00:44:11,360 --> 00:44:12,720 Where's Spector? 528 00:44:39,680 --> 00:44:43,159 Check the treatment room, the de-escalation room! 529 00:44:43,160 --> 00:44:44,680 Check the kitchen! 530 00:45:03,080 --> 00:45:04,159 Shit! 531 00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:05,560 Bailey's room! 532 00:45:14,440 --> 00:45:15,600 Oh, God. 533 00:45:20,720 --> 00:45:21,759 Get him down. 534 00:45:21,760 --> 00:45:24,800 Quick. Mind his head. Mind his head. Mind his head. 535 00:45:28,200 --> 00:45:30,280 Get the belt. Get the belt. 536 00:45:32,000 --> 00:45:33,320 Paul. Paul. 537 00:45:43,680 --> 00:45:45,480 I'm sorry. 538 00:45:48,760 --> 00:45:49,960 Gibson. 539 00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:56,200 Okay. 540 00:45:57,000 --> 00:45:58,320 What is it? 541 00:46:00,640 --> 00:46:02,479 - I have to go. - What's happened? 542 00:46:02,480 --> 00:46:04,679 I can't tell you, I'm sorry. 543 00:46:04,680 --> 00:46:05,920 Is it Paul? 544 00:46:10,080 --> 00:46:11,400 Bye, Katie. 545 00:46:43,600 --> 00:46:46,079 Oh, God. Dr. Larson... 546 00:46:46,080 --> 00:46:47,400 I'm sorry. 547 00:46:48,320 --> 00:46:49,600 I'm so sorry. 548 00:49:10,240 --> 00:49:14,679 Paul Spector, the man charged with four recent murders in the Belfast area, 549 00:49:14,680 --> 00:49:19,199 was found dead last night in one of the bedrooms of the Foyle Clinic, 550 00:49:19,200 --> 00:49:21,960 where he was undergoing psychiatric assessment. 551 00:49:23,560 --> 00:49:27,319 This morning, an inquiry was launched into how he had come to die 552 00:49:27,320 --> 00:49:30,960 whilst under level two observation by clinic staff. 553 00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:36,119 Spector, 32, was found dead at 9:31 p.m. 554 00:49:36,120 --> 00:49:38,559 While efforts were made to revive him... 555 00:49:38,560 --> 00:49:42,040 ...he was certified dead by doctors at 9:51 p.m. 556 00:49:42,920 --> 00:49:46,959 The Foyle Clinic's leading clinician was also injured during the incident. 557 00:49:46,960 --> 00:49:49,879 He is in hospital and in a stable condition. 558 00:49:49,880 --> 00:49:52,520 His injuries are not thought to be life-threatening. 559 00:49:53,320 --> 00:49:57,159 Another patient, Mark Bailey, 29, was killed. 560 00:49:57,160 --> 00:49:59,599 His family have been informed. 561 00:49:59,600 --> 00:50:02,960 An inquiry into his death is ongoing. 562 00:50:04,600 --> 00:50:08,399 I can confirm that the PSNI are not looking for anyone else 563 00:50:08,400 --> 00:50:12,399 in connection with the murders of Fiona Gallagher, Sarah Kay, 564 00:50:12,400 --> 00:50:15,599 Alice Parker Monroe or Joseph Brawley. 565 00:50:15,600 --> 00:50:19,239 An inquest will take place into each of those deaths. 566 00:50:19,240 --> 00:50:23,720 DCI Eastwood will oversee the preparation of those inquest files. 567 00:50:27,320 --> 00:50:30,880 In light of recent events, and as of today... 568 00:50:31,800 --> 00:50:33,559 I am standing down from my position 569 00:50:33,560 --> 00:50:36,720 as Gold Commander of Operation Musicman. 570 00:50:37,640 --> 00:50:41,520 In addition, the chief constable has accepted my resignation. 571 00:50:42,840 --> 00:50:44,559 I would like to take this opportunity 572 00:50:44,560 --> 00:50:48,080 to thank Detective Superintendent Gibson for all her hard work, 573 00:50:48,840 --> 00:50:50,879 her dedication to duty, 574 00:50:50,880 --> 00:50:53,320 and her leadership during the investigation. 575 00:50:55,920 --> 00:50:57,080 Thank you. 576 00:51:06,920 --> 00:51:08,280 I'm sorry, sir. 577 00:52:04,640 --> 00:52:06,720 Take care, Dani. 578 00:52:08,960 --> 00:52:10,040 And you, ma'am. 579 00:52:40,720 --> 00:52:45,200 "In olden times, when wishing still did some good, 580 00:52:46,040 --> 00:52:49,480 there lived a king, whose daughters were all beautiful. 581 00:52:50,400 --> 00:52:53,319 But the youngest was so beautiful 582 00:52:53,320 --> 00:52:57,919 that the sun itself, who indeed, has seen so much, 583 00:52:57,920 --> 00:53:01,760 marveled every time it shone upon her face. 584 00:53:02,720 --> 00:53:08,799 In the vicinity of the king's castle, there was a large, dark forest. 585 00:53:08,800 --> 00:53:12,959 And in this forest, beneath an old linden tree, 586 00:53:12,960 --> 00:53:14,320 there was a well. 587 00:53:16,360 --> 00:53:21,319 In the heat of the day, the princess would go out into the forest 588 00:53:21,320 --> 00:53:25,040 and sit on the edge of the cool well. 589 00:53:25,720 --> 00:53:29,679 To pass the time, she would take a golden ball, 590 00:53:29,680 --> 00:53:32,600 throw it into the air and then catch it. 591 00:53:33,520 --> 00:53:35,640 It was her favorite plaything." 592 00:54:22,720 --> 00:54:23,799 Thank you. 593 00:54:23,800 --> 00:54:25,600 Thank you, ma'am. Take care. 594 00:54:48,920 --> 00:54:50,919 "As she was lying in bed, 595 00:54:50,920 --> 00:54:53,600 he came creeping up to her and said, 596 00:54:54,480 --> 00:54:58,559 'I'm tired and I want to sleep as well as you do. 597 00:54:58,560 --> 00:55:01,360 Pick me up or I'll tell your father.' 598 00:55:02,440 --> 00:55:05,999 With that, she became bitterly angry 599 00:55:06,000 --> 00:55:08,919 and threw him against the wall with all her might. 600 00:55:08,920 --> 00:55:12,880 'Now you will have your peace, you disgusting frog!'" 601 00:55:14,960 --> 00:55:17,999 She's supposed to kiss him, not throw him against the wall. 602 00:55:19,240 --> 00:55:20,800 That's Disney. 603 00:55:21,920 --> 00:55:23,880 This is the real story. 604 00:55:26,720 --> 00:55:28,400 "But when he fell down... 605 00:55:29,360 --> 00:55:31,040 he was not a frog... 606 00:55:32,800 --> 00:55:33,960 but a prince... 607 00:55:34,960 --> 00:55:38,360 with beautiful and friendly eyes."